40 Days 40 Nights update - End

I think I proved my point. With 18 days remaining I'm ending this today. Even though I was not able to complete the 40 days I learned a lot.

1. I'm not ready for change. Yet.
2. I'll take everything in moderation. (too little or too much of something is not good)
3. I know theres someone out there for me. I can feel it. hahaha
4. And stop thinking too much! Just go with it.

I think now I don't need it as much as I used to.

Year End Survey

What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?

- I tried to bake

- Went to Vigan and Taiwan

·Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

- No. I don’t make resolutions (because I can’t really keep them) just goals.

·Did anyone close to you give birth?

- A cousin.

·Did anyone close to you die?

- No. No one close has ever died in my family in such a long time. [Cross fingers]

·What countries did you visit?

- US, Taiwan

·What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?

- More time to go out

- Travel more

·What was your biggest achievement of the year?

- Being to where I am right now.

·What was your biggest failure?

- Being a fool for love.

·Did you suffer illness or injury?

- Not this year.

·What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

- Mid July – very painful

·What was the best thing you bought?

- I got some good deals on my shoes

- Plane ticket to visit my family

·Whose behavior merited celebration?

- My family – specifically my mom and my dad

- My two crazy sisters

- Also my nephews and nieces

- The whole Solid gang

- And my Ped Xing crew

·What did you get really, really, really excited about?

- Flying to Chicago and San Diego (both I haven’t been to in around 10 years)

·Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

- Myself. Looking back I could have handled a lot of things better.

·Where did most of your money go?

- My car

- Shoes

- Utilities - house

·What song will always remind you of 2007?

- Bartender – T pain

- I’m a flirt – R Kelly

- Face Down

·Compared to this time last year, are you:

- happier or sadder? I can’t remember

- thinner or fatter? thinner

- richer or poorer? Richer (not only Financially)

·What do you wish you'd done more of?

- I think I would have spent less time feeling sorry for myself. Spending it dating or meeting new people.

·What do you wish you'd done less of?

- Less stupid.

- Less talking

·Did you fall in love in 2007?

- Yes

·How many one-night stands?

- Its not for me. My mama raised me to know better.

·What was your favorite TV program?

- I think I got hooked with Prison Break and Heroes.

- Plus of J Doramas and K Dramas

·Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

- No.

·What was the best book you read?

- After the quake – Haruki Murakami

·What was your greatest musical discovery?

- Some Jpop and Kpop artists!

·What did you want and got?

- A promotion.

- I got to see my family

·What was your favorite film of this year?

- Spiderman, Transformers

·What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

- I spent it in Pasig but I also had Mcdonald’s party (a few days before) I was 23. It was a surprise party setup by my friend.

·What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

- Being with someone for Christmas. Lagi na lang ako SMC pag pasko. Hahaha

·How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?

- Urban.

·What kept you sane?

- My friends, a lot of SMB light, Absolut Kurant, Feel good doramas.

- My work as well, kept me busy

·Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

- Song Hye Kyo and Yoon Eun Hye

·Who did you miss?

- I miss my friends from my org

·Who was the best new person you met?

- Joe. A very old friend of mine, gradeschool days ko pa friend to.

·Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:

- Iwasan yung bahala na attitude. Favorite saying ng friend ko: “failing to plan is planning to fail”


·The most touching experience you've had this year?

- Seeing my mom excited to see me.

- Coming home fresh from a breakup my brothers and sisters told me that I’ve grown up.

·What did you like most about yourself this year?

- I think this is my healthiest year ever! I lost a few pounds and lowered my total body fat %

·What did you hate most about yourself this year?

- I think I made my life more complicated by thinking too much and worrying too much

·Was 2007 a good year for you?

- The first half of it was terrible, I lost the girl I thought was really the one. Half of it was on the recovery period. So the answer is no.

40 Days 40 Nights update - 1 week later.

Whew! What a day! I almost slipped today and almost got together with an old friend of mine. Good thing I was able to control myself being it only 930 in the morning and all. There are a lot of times that I really want to quit and just go back to how I used to be. But thats the problem, I think that if I go back it would be even worse.

I can't believe that I still have a month to go! Man, just thinking about it makes me dizzy. I know I can do this its just a matter of control right?

With the pact I made I think that I think more about sex now than ever. Like somethings that weren't really sexual to me before are now catching my attention. They say men think about sex every 6 seconds, in my case now I feel I think about it every 4 seconds. I wonder how priests do it?

40 Days and 40 Nights

I'm putting my foot down and decided that it's time for a change. I've given this a lot of thought but couldn't really put my finger on what to do. Should I go to church more often, should I be a vegetarian? There were a lot of things I listed and most of them were silly or just to drastic. I was talking to a friend the other day about how she hasn't had any for almost four years. So that got me thinking if she could do that why can't I? It would be like practicing self control and test my determination.

For 40 days and 40 nights there will be no: Jan 10 - Feb 18 2008

masturbation
touching
kissing
foreplay
intercourse

I didn't really think of a reward. I am just taking this experience and trying to document it as much as I can so I can learn from it.

I'm actually on my 3rd day today. Besides the dreams I've been having, theres really nothing out of the ordinary.

new year new post!

Happy New Year! Usually a new year's post would include things I was thankful for last year and the things that I'd be looking forward to this year. Here it goes.

Overall the first half of 2007 was a wait and see period for me. I didn't have long term goals because I couldn't really decide on what to do with my life. Will I move to the US or wait it out here in PI? I was really unstable and I hated that feeling. I felt that I was leaning to make a decision that would ultimately end up, me getting something I am unsure of. Being in that situation I ended up making the most mature decision of my life. I left a relationship I was in for 2 years. And decided to go back home and start from scratch.

The second half was more on reflection. Going back to old friends, old girlfriends helped me learn more about myself. There were a lot of times I felt alone, but really all it was I was missing what it felt like to be in a relationship. I guess being in a 4 year and 2 year relationship it was hard for me to adjust to dating again.

But I got over it. I can say now that I'm doing fine. Wait, I'm doing pretty good..

Ilocos Sur Trip

Going from Manila to Ilocos was a an 8-hour trip. Fortunately we had a very good driver and an excellent van. I kept on thinking when we arrived in Candon, that  I would never go back since  the trip took so freaking long.  But  our tour guide was so wonderful that he made  me change my mind .

First off I'd like to say that I know no one who is Ilokano (someone who was born and raised). So I didn't really have any clue what the people were like. When we were at the beach I saw two guys shouting at each other, I thought they were going to have fight, but when I asked Lex (my boss/tour guide) he said it was normal and that's just the way they talked. It seemed that their dialect was really different from other dialects because I could not understand a word they were saying. Unlike cebuano or ilonggo which had some tagalog words, in ilokano I had a hard time picking up tagalog words in sentences. 

A few days before going to Ilocos Lex told me the things and food we would try in Ilocos. There was a lot of food going on in Ilocos!


There's their version of empanada (above), it was chopped longganisa, carrots, cabbage, egg wrapped in a tortilla (which is made of rice not corn) and deep fried. I bought a dozen longganisa for me to try at home. They also had their special bibingka which was also made from sticky rice (malagkit) and was sweet. There were brownies and empananditas from Martha's. Bagnet was also a huge deal since they said that it was crunchier than lechon kawali.


Their beach was nice. It was clean and the sand was not bad at all (very light brown). Not much waves though, if we wanted waves we should have gone to Pagudpod which was a 3 hour drive from Ilocos Sur.

Also while in Heritage City, we saw two celebrities also taking a tour. I think it was their manager that brought them. One was the grand winner of the bench modeling search and the other one was an evicted celebrity housemate.

My 3 day trip in all was great, I would definitely go back to Ilocos.. next stop, Batanes.

note: notice that I'm in none of the pics, I was holding the camera for most of the visit.. grr.

If I was my friend I’d think I’m weird

I’ve have a lot of weird habits. So weird that kahit ako I think I’m weird. Here are some of the things I do that I think are kind of weird

If want to feel sleepy I go to the mall.

I work night shifts and usually I go home around 10am but the weird thing is that I sleep around 5pm so that means I only get around 5-6 hours of sleep. I really worry about my sleeping habits now that I’m last shift. Before when my shift ends around 6am I sleep when I get home. Now it takes me longer to feel sleepy because its so hot! So what I do is since we live near a mall I just take a stroll, window shop until I feel sleepy and go home. I know its really weird but it works for me. Maybe because the mall is so empty during the weekday afternoons and its feels so lazy

I answer my own questions and think out loud

I admit that I don’t know everything in administering in Windows, simple things like group policies and permissions sometimes still make me scratch my head. Sometimes I have a question like “How do I generate this debug log again? Or how do I read this log?” When I ask the more technical people at work I usually stop them in the middle of their explanation and say “ah ok gets ko na..” Even worse I talk to myself when I have problems, aloud. Sometimes in the dressing room when I try jeans or shirts I talk, sometimes my friends even thought that I was with someone because I was talking.

Worries worries

Me and a couple of friends are thinking of setting up a huge dream of ours, the plans are all set, the designs, the names, the themes, it just that our investor just disappeared. He doesn't go to meetings, he never replies to our messages. He is our top investor and we need the capital to start our business. Hindi naman ako naiinis but its just like our group just stopped caring for the project. What originally started out was a venture of 6 friends has now gone to only 3. I was telling the twins (who made the designs) that we just needed a push and hopefully our plans would eventually materialize.

It's hard to work with people especially if you have different views of where the project should go. Should we go URBAN, pang masa, or how many designs should we produce, who should we give our creations to, things like that. It's already early Feb and we still don't have any finished products. Our original plan was to release a summer collection pero at the rate we're going we would be lucky to release by April.

After watching the latest episode of Prison Break (215) the 3 of us sat around and defined (bacjground music namin Helera, All American Rejects - hahaha) what really we wanted our brand to be like. From the circles we've been around the past few months we noticed that we come from totally different inspirations. Ako urban, yung isa gusto medyo sophisticated, hindi naman kami nag debate pero at least we know what everyone is thinking.

Next week we'll be shopping for materials we would be using I just hope we find something with the small budget we have.